although i have to admit his little girl at the end got to me, that was simple and pure grief
Yeah, grief in the spotlight. I guess it's fitting for the individual the funeral was for, but it's a bit weird given how adamant that individual was on keeping the kids away from the spotlight.
the more i think about it the more i feel like i shouldn't have seen that part, like i was spying through a church window during a funeral or something
but i do understand the sentiment behind it, and some of the other genuine statements made in his defense during that whole tacky mess
i can only imagine having a fairly heinous charge against you broadcast on news channels around the world 24/7 for months - it would ruin you as a human being, and it wouldn't matter if you were found not guilty
to know that people you've been around your whole life, and every single person you meet from that moment forward, will have that question bouncing around in their mind at least once, there's no way it can be anything but soul-crushing
so i can certainly understand why someone would turn to a combination of painkillers to make all that blur away and go numb for a while, although i personally think he should have sacked up for the sake of his kids
also, swaggaz and beezy are about the only sane people still left posting in that gaf RIP thread, the adulation there has long turned - no exaggeration - genuinely disturbing
i think i'm all done talking about everything except for the music once in a while, though
loved listening to the jackson five on my mom's transistor radio (AM 4ever, baby), will always remember laughing and dancing my stupid little white kid dance to thriller on that cheap tape recorder - the rest of it, anything other than the groovy tunes and the silly memories behind them, can fuck off and away from this point on